I was so tired yesterday after playing basketball with my colleagues at Kovan. It has been probably 7 years since I played basketball last time in college.

I went back to the place where I stay. I was waiting for the traffic light to turn green with a group of people. Then suddenly a man started go across the road when the light was still red. There are cars running on the road. Luckily, he went to the other side without any accident. I can tell from his back that he may be a Indian or Malay. At this moment, some guy started to talk..."He is so lucky...Why didn't he wait for the light?"...I noticed there was a Chinese-looking family in the group of people. The wife replied her husband:"Last time I saw a China girl going across the road when the light is red, she was almost bumped." Then one kid said, "I guess in China they don't have traffic lights"..."Yeah.." the mom said...Why?

Why when you see something not good, you think about China? What bad thing did China do to you? Where did you gradparents come from? You hope you would become Malay or Indian some day?

I know why. Because you know nothing about the world out of Singapore, you never go out and see the world! I do have some friends from Singapore - Malay, Indian, Singaporean Chinese. Most of my friends are friendly - Annie, Nancy, Eric... But I also notice there are a certain percentage of Singaporean Chinese who look down on China a lot. I don't want to change your mind, but you should not teach your kids like this. A lot of your kids will go to work and live in China in the future I believe. You should open their mind, not limit them. Am I right?

亲爱的姥爷，我是小悦，和您很亲切的小悦。爸妈告诉我您昨天上午不在了，我的心好难过。这次出差来新加坡，包括从开始工作到现在，我比以前去看您看得少多了。其实真的也很惦记您，是我做得不够。
我早上给爸妈打过电话了，和他们说了说，也很担心妈妈的情绪与身体。从电话里听上去，妈妈很坚强，妈妈没哭，我先哭了。年前就听说您住院的消息，一直很担心，每次问妈妈，妈妈都告诉我您的病情没有进一步恶化，也没有什么明显的好转。我心里也不清楚您会不会好，可是真的心里很希望您能好起来，希望我回去还能看到您，也让您看到我。可我不能如愿以偿了，甚至连您的追悼会也不能赶去了。真的很难过。您还能在梦里和我说说话么？
从小和您一起生活了很久，脑子里还记得一些和您生活时候的片断。您总是给我讲故事哄我睡觉，那是听您讲的故事是那么有意思，有些故事我记得我要求您给我讲了好几遍，比如说“漏”的故事。很喜欢吃您做得拌黄瓜丝，也喜欢您的醋熘白菜，真的不想接受和我这么亲切的您这么快就离开了我们。我还记得我们以前经常一起去遛弯，早上去，晚上也去。这种好的锻炼习惯也让您保持了很好的身体状况，我曾经很开心的是您的身体一直很好。
我知道您曾经是八级木匠，那应该算是很高级的工人的级别吧，您但是一定出了自己的聪明也很努力。后来您还自己学着认识了很多字。我一直想，如果您和我生在一个时代，一定是个了不起的人物，说不定也能成为个科学家呢，一定是我的偶像（当然，您现在也是我心中的偶像）。我应该学习您那种积极对待人生，努力工作的态度。
您对儿女子孙都很好，妈妈刚才还告诉我，您省吃俭用省出了几万块，要留给孩子们。想起您的手指头，您告诉我那时干活受过伤；想起您的皮肤有些黑白斑块，您告诉我白表示卫生，黑表示健康；想起您那时候喜欢用的大扇子，您总用那大扇子给我扇风；记得您给我学南方人说话“外公，我要吃桔子”...还挺妈妈说过您年轻时候打舅舅们的事情，您对我从来都是和蔼可亲，即使我犯过错误也没骂过我，就别说打了。
我的好姥爷，悦想您，您去世前去世后，悦都想您。希望您好好的走，希望您没有遗憾的走，也希望我们来世还是亲人。等回国了，我让妈妈告诉我您的灵位在哪里，去看您。